And one of these nights when I have a couple of hours to spare I'll upload the photos and a link to the pattern. And I'll look up the pattern and tell you what it is. I do have the ball band here, it's Pastimes Space Oddity, a hand-dyed laceweight I scored while in Chicago. Did I post about Chicago? Awesome trip, totally fun. Ill post pics when....well, you know.
Anyway, the shawn was started in the van on the way to Notre Dame to see DH's family (his 86 year old grandmother is quite possibly the most amazing person - I know everyone says that but she truly is - she is a dynamo, so witty and quick...I think actually a bit wittier than her kids at times ;-)) - anyway, I started it, went to row 33, and realized I was short a stitch. Of course I was too arrogant to use a lifeline, so I had to frog back to the 22nd row, with a bit of fudging the numbers (adding a YO) to make it fit. So it's a little bit arsed up in the beginning but I'm confident that it will work out in blocking. Of course, I should frog the entire thing and start over, it's only 35 rows, but I truly don't think the recipient will even notice it, and my knitting time limited, and precious - I love completing things, and I love knitting them...the first time. I hate HATEEEE frogging, it really upsets me, so I'm pretty okay with living with my mistakes.
I also finished a baby shrug for K from Debbie Bliss Cashmerino Aran, it's so soft I want to do things that would be pretty inappropriate for a G-rated blog with it. She, of course, refuses to wear it. I might give it to her cousin, it's a wee bit big anyway, maybe she'll wear a pink one. And I want to start a fair isle for her as well (another Debbie Bliss - actually a combination of two of her patterns). And she'll probably refuse to wear it too.
And I now have inventory for sale, I'm debating whether to use Etsy or Cloth Diaper Supplies...we'll see what the financial aspect tells me - I have four soakers for sale plus a pair of size small longies, and I'm about to cast on some NB longies in organic wool for a friend. And socks for Dan. I abandoned Ice Queen (it sucked in the Malabrigo and now it's spring, though I did score some kidsilk haze in Chicago too) and Jonna (stupid yarn was too stiff it looks like crap).
Back to my sock.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Monday, March 10, 2008
why the f(*Y am I doing this again???
I was feeling pretty discouraged about being a lawyer, I really do not feel I am getting better every day at what I do, and I feel like I'm just stalled, if not going backward, in terms of proficieincy at research and cross-examination. I feel like I'm capable and competent, but I don't feel clever anymore - I don't feel like the little superstar I once was, and I don't like feeling...average, I guess. I don't know if it's being a sole practitioner, or a mom working only part time, or what..I just don't like that feeling that I'm not engaged in my profession. Part of me is looking forward and thinking the next baby is at least 9 months away and how much longer am I going to work like this and keep my career on hold? It's not much fun, I'm in this limbo where I can't focus only on the home and our family and taking care of everybody (which I love love love doing), and knitting and being useful is those ways...because I have to damned job that worry about constantly.
And when I'm working, I feel like family is holding me back from achieving my career potential, and I'm a feminist who shouldn't want to sell knitted things, and take care of her family, and quit her job for a few years.
I really needed to just sit down and do a few hours of work tonight, because as I slog through the backlog of emails and make sure I've taken care of everything I need to, and written down all my hearing dates, and added postage to my postage meter and filed my RST return and...
then I thought, I should really blog this...there has got to be someone else out there, maybe they've lurked on the blog and never commented...but there has got to be someone out there, who really, really loves her career and her children and who wants to be an earth mother but maybe a superstar too. I think I need to find my tribe...to find people who really relate. Not the stay at home moms who wean their babies anyway and let them cry it out because they're too clingy. Not the people for whom work is everything and who don't mind working 60 hour weeks. People like me, who are caught firmly in the middle, who still wake up a few times a night to nurse a toddler becuase they are just so sweet, who try not to spend money impulsively so as to minimize how much they have to work, who case on projects while reading blogs and avoiding work, who still get a rush from their job when they get the opportunity to really, really focus on it. I would love to hear from people in a similar situation.
And now I'm going back to doing my research on resulting trusts which, I do believe, is coming out very nicely in my favour, which made me realize that the other lawyer, despite being very senior to me and a man, does not know what the hell he is talking about on this particular issue, and is afraid of looking like an ass to his client, and who is attempting to try and bully me into a settlement which, quite frankly, might be inappropraite.
Game on. At least until the baby wakes up.
P.S. I was going to upload photos from Chicago, which was really great and exciting and fun and is probably another factor in why I feel so drawn to that lifestyle right now - we spent every moment together, Katja, without my being distracted by email, phone, and stress. And by the end of the weekend I felt so much more tuned in to her, and I don't want to lose that, it's so precious. But I can't find the bloody camera.
P.P.S. Sigh. I guess things are back to normal.
And when I'm working, I feel like family is holding me back from achieving my career potential, and I'm a feminist who shouldn't want to sell knitted things, and take care of her family, and quit her job for a few years.
I really needed to just sit down and do a few hours of work tonight, because as I slog through the backlog of emails and make sure I've taken care of everything I need to, and written down all my hearing dates, and added postage to my postage meter and filed my RST return and...
then I thought, I should really blog this...there has got to be someone else out there, maybe they've lurked on the blog and never commented...but there has got to be someone out there, who really, really loves her career and her children and who wants to be an earth mother but maybe a superstar too. I think I need to find my tribe...to find people who really relate. Not the stay at home moms who wean their babies anyway and let them cry it out because they're too clingy. Not the people for whom work is everything and who don't mind working 60 hour weeks. People like me, who are caught firmly in the middle, who still wake up a few times a night to nurse a toddler becuase they are just so sweet, who try not to spend money impulsively so as to minimize how much they have to work, who case on projects while reading blogs and avoiding work, who still get a rush from their job when they get the opportunity to really, really focus on it. I would love to hear from people in a similar situation.
And now I'm going back to doing my research on resulting trusts which, I do believe, is coming out very nicely in my favour, which made me realize that the other lawyer, despite being very senior to me and a man, does not know what the hell he is talking about on this particular issue, and is afraid of looking like an ass to his client, and who is attempting to try and bully me into a settlement which, quite frankly, might be inappropraite.
Game on. At least until the baby wakes up.
P.S. I was going to upload photos from Chicago, which was really great and exciting and fun and is probably another factor in why I feel so drawn to that lifestyle right now - we spent every moment together, Katja, without my being distracted by email, phone, and stress. And by the end of the weekend I felt so much more tuned in to her, and I don't want to lose that, it's so precious. But I can't find the bloody camera.
P.P.S. Sigh. I guess things are back to normal.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Flin Flon
I love Flin Flon. It's one of those one-industry towns, in northern Manitoba, about 770 km from Winnipeg. I've been there several times for work, and want very much to bring the kids up camping this winter.
Anyway, it was such a cool trip - so much to tell, but it's 11 p.m. and I have work to do - but the highlights:
Katja was an angel on the plane. Here we are on the way there:
Here is my swanky hotel room - you too can stay here for a mere $120/night
The fabulous office facility (Katja was sleeping in the main room; I had so much work to do in the evenings, I was terrified of waking her)
And the complimentary upgrade to my office chair
Anyway, it was such a cool trip - so much to tell, but it's 11 p.m. and I have work to do - but the highlights:
Katja was an angel on the plane. Here we are on the way there:
Here is my swanky hotel room - you too can stay here for a mere $120/night
The fabulous office facility (Katja was sleeping in the main room; I had so much work to do in the evenings, I was terrified of waking her)
And the complimentary upgrade to my office chair
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